Beyond your smile I could not see,
Sooner or later, we were bound to break this publicly.
You lost faith in my determination,
All I could see was your deterioration.
Life was always simple until I had you in it,
I hated who I was with you – a shell, with no mind and spirit.
I lied against the truth was on my lips,
The night I said this was ours to fix.
Choosing to stay with you was the easy-hardest option,
And my heart changed with each unhealthy eruption.
For each and every moment that I gave you my respect,
I hated myself within introspect.
Your world came with invisible conditions;
To love you was to hate myself and I am not your walking contradiction.
Our mistakes should be seen as commitment to our future opportunities.
Blindsided blows do not state that we were naïve, in-fact they speak of trust, faith and hope. There will be time when we compromise ourselves for others, when this time comes – may the risk be worth it.
JX
Jollyoddbod 